Love Letter Home

Today I am thankful for mail.  It’s amazing, how the ability to communicate more easily has increased, yet the depth of communication is diminishing.  Our little black mailbox has an abundance of white envelopes with shiny plastic windows, almost automatically identifying it as “junk”.  Mail has always been important to me.  I remember sitting around the table in our Africa home, as my dad put us kids to work folding letters and licking stamps by the hundred, before mailing out our prayer letter.  It has always been a part of my life.  I remember writing my own “newsletters” as I grew older, reporting things like the weather and the status of our family pet.  Once my sister, Sherry, and I made a joint newsletter and mailed them all in handmade envelopes made from magazine pages.  This week I got busy making a stack of my own.  I almost felt like she was with me, folding them in front of the fireplace at our old house, giddy with excitement over how people would love the surprise of such a colorful envelope in their mailbox.

Matthew and I used to write to each other all the time.  Before email, before texting, I got the kind of mail that made my heart skip a beat when I saw the handwriting.  This week my heart has skipped a lot of beats.  Matthew has taken the time to write me every day and surprised me with real deal mail.  Stamp, envelope, everything.  No return address, because it would just arrive home anyway.  Each letter has blessed me in unspeakable ways.  I love my husband more than ever.  I’m so thankful for the time he takes to treasure my heart.

In Memory of Twenty-One Years Ago

Twenty-one years ago today, my family and I piled into a little Cessna airplane with everything our suitcase could fit, and flew into an unknown future.  What I thought was a quick trip to the neighboring country of Kenya, became a stepping stone to the final leg of our journey to the United States.  What I thought would be temporary, turned into permanent, and I never went back to my cherished and idyllic home of Nyankunde.  It has changed my life in  many ways.  I am thankful for my heritage, the obedience of my parents to move to Africa and raise their four children there, give me a childhood worth more than gold, and yes, even for the abrupt uprooting 21 years ago.  I have learned so much from these experiences.  More than a few sentences can say.  I am thankful for the memories of Nyankunde, and of how it shaped my life and my heart into who I am today.  

Our house at Nyankunde.  My bedroom was the far left, looking at the house.

My sister, Sherry, and I on our way to buy something from the little market.  I am sticking out my tongue because I very clearly remember that my mom told me to go put a skirt on before we left.  I am wearing shorts underneath my skirt.  I usually did.

The view from the front of our house.

The view from my bedroom window.  The hills which surrounded our station always thrilled me.

Friday’s Thankful Tune

Today I’m thankful for silly outfits, spaghetti faces, our awesome bib from Italy, and the vintage highchair I found for $7.  I love the way Betty sits in it.

I am thankful for heat & electricity!  I’m thankful for a warm scarf to wrap around my neck, slippers that have lasted ten years, and food for another day.  I’m thankful for hot tea, and the sweet kindness of my husband who makes me hot drinks almost every day.  I’m thankful it’s Friday, and am leaning on God’s grace to be a voice of encouragement, positive influence, and love in my kids’ lives today.

Four Bites of Thankfulness

As November begins, I will be doing a daily thankful post.  We can’t have enough thankfulness.  My heart needs constant tuning.  When it feels off-pitch, it is usually due to comparison, greed, envy, pride, or dis-satisfaction.  However, all of these cacophonous noises can be brought into perfect tune with a sound dose of thankfulness.

Today I am thankful for the lessons my children are teaching me.  Grace and patience come to mind today.  When a sweet child refused to eat or try her supper last night, I told her it would be her breakfast.  After breakfast came and went, it became her lunch.  After lunch, we sat at the table together and it finally became her afternoon snack.  The anger I felt this morning dissipated as I gentled my approach but strengthened my resolve.  Her heart is at stake, not a bowl of potatoes.  I could care less if she ever grows to like potatoes, even though that would be great.  I care a great deal, however, for her to trust my word, not be afraid of me, and respect my authority.  I made sure my expectations weren’t unreasonable, and focused my attention on her heart, not on winning the battle.  The breach between us has been bridged once more, and the first thing she did after she swallowed her last bite was give me a hug.

I’m also thankful for the wild and crazy outfits this strong-minded girl wears.  When I hesitated at her wearing her sparkly purple dress out to the grocery store, Matthew sweetly reminded me that it won’t fit her forever, and so why not enjoy it today?  And why not enjoy it with hot pink and silver striped stockings and red boots!

I can hardly wait to say what else I’m thankful for, because when I start this tuning process, all the yucky sounds of discontent go running!  It is a habit I have tried hard to maintain, but feel the need of much improvement right now.

Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, remembering that as members of the same body you are called to live in harmony, and never forget to be thankful for what God has done for you.  (Col. 3:15)   Always be thankful.  It’s a command, not an option!

Greeting Sandy with Scented Play Dough

As we wait for the great hurricane Sandy, I did something I’ve always wanted to do.  I made playdough!

Mix together in a pot:
1 cup flour
1/4 cup salt
1 T cream of tartar or cornstarch (I ran out of cream of tartar.  I thought it worked better than cornstarch, but worked in a pinch.)
1 packet of kool-aid
1 cup of water
1 T oil

The fun part is if you mix all the dry ingredients secretly, then let the kids add the water… it magically turns into the color they “wish”. =)
Stir on low heat until ball forms.  It’s sticky but should scrape right off the bottom of the pan.

Roll out onto the counter, and voila!  Scented playdough!

Let the fun begin!

Yeah!

Every time you ask Betty a question she will always answer, “Yeah!”  I love it.

Betty, are you hungry?  YEAH!  Betty, are those your shoes?  YEAH!  Betty, do you love Elijah?  YEAH!

She sometimes pulls out the cheerio box and grabs a handful.  Doesn’t happen a lot, but if you asked her if she likes cheerios, she would say, YEAH!

Betty, do you love your daddy?  YEAH!  Betty, are  you finished your banana?  YEAH!  Betty, do you need to get dressed?  YEAH!

Betty, do you love your bunny?  YEAH!  Betty, does Jesus love you?  YEAH! 


She is our major key lift when life feels minor.  She reminds me of how I need to approach life every day: with an enthusiastic, yeah!

Not As Strong

Sometimes we feel pressure to look stronger than we really are.  This happens daily in the realm of motherhood, when questioning eyes ask things too deep to answer.  When accomplishing anything means getting out of bed first, this requires strength we often don’t feel.   We are frail, we are fearfully and wonderfully made.  

On Saturday Matthew ran a Tough Mudder with his friend, Jon.  I watched as thousands of people willingly got doused in cold water, slodged through mud, and even ran through live wires.  It was an exciting day, full of energy and dirt.  Even though I was surrounded by myriads of people, a lonely feeling lurked around me all day long.  A stranger among throngs of friends.  Forged in the fire of human passion, choking on the fumes of selfish rage.  

Aside from seeing them once on the course, I totally missed them at every other obstacle.  My timing was off and so I spent the day taking pictures of strangers covered in mud.   My favorite part of the run was the second to last obstacle: a half pipe with people lined up at the top.  Muddy hands, eager to help, able to lift another muddy body onto the mountain.  The mud was everywhere.  It somehow unified everyone.  With these our hells and our heavens, so few inches apart, we must be awfully small and not as strong as we think we are.

This year has not been easy.  I feel the weight and pressure of many changes going on in our life.  We are so incredibly blessed, and it’s difficult to even admit when I’m struggling.  I am often high on life, and come across as a strong athlete able to scale the walls alone.  Yet I’m just like you, covered in mud, needing your helping hands to pull me over this obstacle.  No we are not as strong as we think we are.

Just Like Felix

I’d like to compare my life to Felix Baumgartner.  This week, he broke records when he jumped out of a tiny space capsule, 23 miles from earth.  They say he’s a daredevil.  I think every mom is a daredevil.  Who wouldn’t be labeled brave, who birthed a child?  No women I know.  As we launch out into the stratosphere of our day, life seems pretty mundane.  Just another liftoff.  However, every day we are breaking the speed of sound as we leap out of our capsules and venture at hair-raising speeds into what we affectionately call “life”.  Sometimes it feels like our bodies are spinning so fast our head hurts and our stomach ties into a knot.

For me I feel the most free-fall around lunchtime.  We recess from school and I’m faced with seven hungry bellies, mine included!  Today I cracked a dozen eggs, made three loaves of banana bread and some tater tots.  I had just dished up my own plate of yummy broccoli-laden eggs with tater tots on the side, when Betty hit the last leg of her morning journey.  I scooped up her crying little self to find her jeans soaked.  She also smelled poopy.  A thorough search confirmed that yes, we are indeed out of wipes.  Up to the bathroom we went, where I stripped her and washed her in the tub.  She loves baths, and I love the way she says “bath” with a very strong emphasis on the “th”, said with as much force as possible.  Her tongue sticks out and she sprays saliva from her mouth when she says it: “ba- tthhhhhhbbbbbbtttthhh.”  Anyway, into the batthhhhbbbbtttthhh she went and came out smelling beautiful.  Into clean clothes she was dressed, and then into her beloved bed she lay.  Her pink bunny snuggled up with her and she happily hit dreamland.  At last I came to the table, where everyone had long ago finished eating their lunch.  I warmed up my food and sat down to accept the nourishment provided.

Another scenario of a meal happened yesterday while I chatted on the phone with my sister.  I made a triple batch of pancakes while five little mouths inhaled them.  It’s almost like watching a cartoon, where the character shoves something into its mouth and it disappears.  Thirty-six or more pancakes down the hatch.

During quiet hour today, Elsie kept wanting to surprise me, so she cleaned off the table (which meant moving everything to another location and wiping it down with a nice wet rag).  Then she similarly tidied the living room, removing, moving, and “doing her best!”  It was really sweet.  After quiet hour, Jack came down with his almost-always-present notebook to show me what he drew.  On top of his artwork he wrote something on his own for the first time, sounding out the words.  It said, “Jack is a arsts.”  (Jack is an artist.)  He’s been working so hard on de-coding sounds back into letters and I just about hit the moon when he showed me.  It’s taken him awhile to get this far, but now the lightbulbs are going off in his brain, and it’s so exciting to watch!

About this time, after cleaning up from the morning’s ride, another curve lies dead ahead.  Time to start supper!  While doing this, I’m also doing laundry, which has been a humorous undertaking the past couple days.  Something happened to the washing machine so that it washes and washes and washes without moving on to the next cycle.  I smelled something hot the other day, but completely tuned out to the fact that a load of laundry had been washing away in the machine for over an hour.  When it finally dawned on me that the smell was coming from the washing machine, I noticed how the dial hadn’t moved a millimeter.  Since then I’ve been setting timers to remind myself to manually change it to the next cycle, so it doesn’t spin into orbit!

So now my quiet is over, and it’s almost time to pull out my parachute so I can gently finish yet another day.  Unlike Baumgartner, the whole world isn’t watching.  But like Felix, I kneel at the end of each mission and thank God for the courage to jump, and the grace to finish.  I call it, Mission: Life Is Beautiful

Tenth Birthday Pictures

Before October disappears, here is a glimpse into Nadine’s birthday!  I made two horse cakes, which for me, is a feat!  I rarely venture outside of the round, layered cake.  I’m not very good at icing, and it didn’t look nearly as good as the one I saw online.  The Happy Birthday banner was made from scraps in my cloth basket.When Matt’s family arrived with Pop-Pop, he was a great sport as the boys pretended to be snipers. 


Nadine loves animals!  Granddaddy, Matt’s dad, sketched this beautiful picture of a horse!  
We’re thankful for our family and friends to share this special time of life with us.  Nadine is enjoying being ten!

An Excessive Addiction

One of my dreams was to be an archaeologist.  Maybe it was the lure of digging in dirt, or the fascination with history.  I have always been drawn to learning about the past and applying those things to today.  Thursday I stepped back in time, about 3000 years.  Matthew and I had the privilege of going to the Franklin Institute in Philadelphia to see the Dead Sea Scrolls which are on their last week of display there.  In addition to the scrolls, there were ancient artifacts, pottery, jewelry, household objects and such.  It was amazing to say the least.


And we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellency of the power may be of God, and not of us.  2 Corinthians 4:7

One section of the tour included a large collection of “household gods” found in ancient Israelite homes.  It gave a glimpse into what really was happening there, inside the homes of people who supposedly were not to have any other gods before the One True God.  I found it interesting to read this description of what was expected of the Israelites.  It bespoke of  hypocrisy.  I thought how very little has changed in the homes and hearts of Christ-followers.  We go to church and we put on our handy, happy, plastic faces.  We mask the pain of bad choices.  We even change the wording of sin to make it not sound as bad.  I like food.  Cars are my thing.  I might need this one day.  It was too good a deal not to buy!   We have an excessive addition to stuff.  Just like those household gods which littered ancient homes, what is literally under our beds, in our cupboards, and filling our storage?  This a serious issue, and one that has been plaguing the hearts of God’s followers for thousands of years.

The dictionary defines idolatry as an immoderate attachment or devotion to something.  If we’re honest with ourselves, we can all probably say there is one, if not more, places in our homes that hold “stuff” we just can’t give up.  We might not have touched it for a few years, but it’s still staying.  Stuff has such an allure.  It gets moldy.  It burns.  It rusts.   It decays.  Yet it still wraps its invisible chains around our hearts so that we can’t let it go.  We can be so enslaved to stuff, that we buy it even when we can’t afford it.  For some of us, this has cost us a great deal more than the initial dollar amount.  Our relationship with stuff has taken such precedence over our relationship with God, that when He nudges us to give some of it away, we balk.  Or when He tells us to give away the very means that would allow us to buy more stuff (aka: money), we really  balk.  We then start a vicious cycle between our hearts and God’s, where the two can’t truly connect, and we stop listening to His voice.  We stop listening to His voice, because we’re scared He might tell us to do something uncomfortable.  Like give.  Or release.  Or repent.  Or a great many other things which in actuality bring us such freedom and peace!  The father of lies is working overtime to distort God’s voice so that we don’t hear Him saying the simple things.

I can’t help but wonder what those archaeologists thought when they found those artifacts.  These small clay figures clashed with the God the people of Israel supposedly loved.  I wonder if it made God seem not as amazing as He really is?  If a piece of clay could allure them, then what kind of God did they really worship?  I wonder the same thing today.  Do our lives make people wonder if God is worth knowing?  He certainly is better than any earthly thing, yet we store up so many treasures that onlookers really don’t see much difference between their lifestyles and ours.  In the New Testament the early Christians gave as each one had need.  That means, if your friend didn’t have enough food but you did, you brought them a meal.  It means that if your car broke down and your friend had two, he gave you his other car.  They looked to God for their needs, and He in turn used His followers to meet those needs.  It was different from the way everyone else lived.  It was noticeable.

There should be no doubt in people’s minds when they look at us that we love the God we serve so much, we put nothing above Him.