In last-minute fashion, I prepared our annual sock calendar Christmas countdown tonight. We always manage to have at least 24 lonely socks by December, and they are usefully re-purposed Instead of warming toes, they carry special secrets and surprises for the kids to find throughout the month of December. When I asked them if they wanted to try something new this year, there was a resounding no way! I think the socks are here to stay. There will be cards in each one with a clue about what we’ll be doing that day, or directions to something they’re supposed to open, or coupons good for special treats. Some will involve people outside our family, some won’t. I’m not as good of a planner as I am a dreamer. I was taking down our Happy Birthday banners from the past two months of birthdays, in the same hour I was putting up our Christmas socks. But I ‘m thankful the kids roll with my haphazard ways.

I don’t feel real pressured into the commercialism of this season. I am more drawn to the man in the boat who slept through a wicked and wild storm, then firmly but surely rebuked the chaos into complete submission. I would much rather possess the peace He came to bring, rather than the crazed yet drained look I sense in people’s eyes in line at the grocery store. I’m drawn to the baby wrapped in rags, lying where a cow had just eaten its last meal. I’m drawn to Him because He calls me to come and follow Him. Where He is, there is much calm and contentment. This is where I need to abide.

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My Weeping Shadow
Every night I look back on my day and wonder at a few of the things I did or did not do. When all is quiet, it’s hard to truly remember how very trying all the noise really was. When there are no more voices calling my name, I wonder why I was so irritated at that hundredth call for mommy. I know there was constant activity all around me all day long, because of the evidence. An apple core hidden here. A stuffed animal under the table. Loads of dishes scrubbed and ready for more carnage tomorrow. Baskets of folded clothes, indicating they were once mounds of laundry. The ever-emptying refrigerator. Not to mention everything in my dustpan at the end of the day.
This morning started off with about a quarter cup of cereal. Since that doesn’t divide between five children so well, I used some leftover bread dough for a monkey bread breakfast. Served on my Italy plate, it was a splendid start to our day. Then all of a sudden all I could think about was how long everyone’s hair was, and we had haircuts all around. The boys got spiffed up, and Betty lost her baby mullet. She did a great job, and her whole face looks older. It matches her just-about-two personality.
Today I called her my weeping shadow. After the morning cheer, she laid down great for her nap… except she never fell asleep. A poopy diaper later, and she was not doing the whole nap thing today. So we battled through many tear-filled moments. She had her first time-out yesterday. She is experiencing the “try one bite” at supper ordeal. She understands every single thing we say, and is sprouting like a little seed in a jar of water. Between my weepy shadow who couldn’t leave my side, math, geography, and everything else required of us today… supper ended up a last-minute outing where the kids were so enthralled with their surroundings that they didn’t eat. Then we went to Matthew’s exercise class, and by the time we got home at 8 o’clock, my bearded husband was whipping out the pancake recipe for a late-night-second-supper. The full moon was wreaking havoc on everyone’s ability to settle down anyway, so why not enjoy a few chocolate-chip pancakes before bed? We did just that. Betty relaxed her sweet chubby feet on my warmed up rice bag, and everyone ate their fill.

I’m thankful for my messy life. For the hair which shows growth. Our daily bread, especially cinnamon and sugar-covered bread. The beauty of a full moon. Tears to show a heart alive, filled with emotion and the ability to feel. I’m thankful for strength to do more than I feel physically able to do sometimes. For creativity to color the mundane. For chattering which makes silence more precious. For grace upon grace upon grace. For little shadows that need me to scoop them up and feel cherished as they are.
Got Funnies
Today I’m thankful for the funny things my kids say.
I want to be a policeman when I grow up because they eat donuts and drink coffee.- Jack
I want to be a ballerina, not a ballerina coach. Just a ballerina. -Elsie
Raise your hand if you like oaps [oats] the most. -Elsie
When asking Nadine if something was too hot, she said, Not enough to make my flexibility [reflexes] leave.
While driving, Elijah and Nadine were talking about different colors, and Elijah mentioned the color of Abendigo. As in, one of the men thrown into the fiery furnace. I think he meant indigo.
Of course, Betty is full of cute things every day. Her latest is an exuberant, Let’s go! Whenever we go somewhere.

Thrilling Tapioca
Today I’m thankful for the tapioca pearls someone gave us awhile back. They’ve been sitting in my cupboard, and I pulled them out this week for some sensory play! Betty was immediately pleased with herself that she was cooking alongside mommy, and set to work scooping, pouring, and taking handfuls of the fun little spheres. Soon all the kids wanted in on the game, and there were tiny white balls all over the kitchen floor. They roll and bounce very easily, by the way. Every day now, Betty goes to the big drawer under the oven, pulls out the muffin tins and a spoon and looks up at me with those baby browns, expectantly waiting for me to fetch the tapioca. I’m thankful for imaginations, the grace when messes happen, and the joy on my children’s faces from simple things. Who needs toys when you have tapioca?

A Warrior and A Princess
Today I’m thankful for the way our kids like to buddy up with each other. Every day, sometimes every hour, it is a different pair or trio. This particular afternoon it was Jack and Elsie. They both like to wear hats. They both like oats for lunch. They look out for each other’s interests. For instance, today when we were driving, Elsie pointed out an orange truck to Jack. She knows he loves orange and probably thought the truck factor was a bonus. I love that sometimes he will concede and play house with her, and other times she will agree to play ninja with him. I’m thankful they can encourage each other and challenge each other in school. I’m thankful for this sweet little duo who bring so much energy and spice to my life.

Greeting Sandy with Scented Play Dough
As we wait for the great hurricane Sandy, I did something I’ve always wanted to do. I made playdough!

Mix together in a pot:
1 cup flour
1/4 cup salt
1 T cream of tartar or cornstarch (I ran out of cream of tartar. I thought it worked better than cornstarch, but worked in a pinch.)
1 packet of kool-aid
1 cup of water
1 T oil
The fun part is if you mix all the dry ingredients secretly, then let the kids add the water… it magically turns into the color they “wish”. =)
Stir on low heat until ball forms. It’s sticky but should scrape right off the bottom of the pan.
Roll out onto the counter, and voila! Scented playdough!

Let the fun begin!
Guess Who? A Page of Our Life
He saunters in without realizing how intense his presence is. Sometimes he hangs out in the doorway of the kitchen, with his arms in an iron-cross. It’s a full-body workout for most people, but for him it seems effortless, almost like breathing. At the dinner table, his spoon becomes a weapon, an airplane, a guy with a gun. If it is taken away from him, his fingers become smoking guns, or walking bad guys, or missiles that scream before exploding. He eats entire bags of carrots in one sitting. He eats breakfast and a half hour later he eats again, and on until the end of the day. His diet is the food of Olympians: fruit, oats, anything crunchy without added sugar. He is still only when he’s sleeping.
She dons numerous outfits a day, usually in some contrasting style or color. Hair-twirler, song singer, marker-lover. She makes beds like a pro. Although a little emotionally fragile, she is also strong in spirit. She loves her friends. She is starting to write and read and adores school. In her heart she is a princess, and she loves to be in charge of anyone who lets her. She has a dry sense of humor that is slowly unfolding. Though she’s afraid of being in her room all by herself, she is not afraid of walking to the park alone. Her bravery gets her into mischief, but I know one day it will take her places where no one else is willing to go.
His eyes never cease to make my heart flutter. He never stops talking, unless he’s in the middle of a project. He loves to build, create, and imagine. His favorite words are, “Mom, look at this!” He knows exactly how to act around babies to make them smile and feel comfortable. He is sweet and gentle when he’s not trying to impress, and by not trying he endears you to himself. His mind is always thinking, and often there is more going on inside than meets the eye. He loves to make people laugh, whether it’s by scaring them, telling a joke, or making silly faces. He is into magic shows and can mow the grass beautifully.
Her hair and personality match perfectly. Bouncy, beautiful, noticeable. She loves people so much it literally makes her heart hurt sometimes if she can’t be with them. She has a servant’s heart and when she sets her mind to it, she can accomplish anything. She is not intimidated by age, and has a special ability to converse with people who are much older. She likes to know “the plan”, and isn’t so fond of surprises. She loves to give gifts and holds onto her own possessions very loosely. She likes her space, but has learned how to share generously.
Her belly sticks out as she stands with her hands behind her back, then she swings her arms purposefully as if she is about to do something with great meaning. She loves to squeal at Toby the rabbit and say, “Good boy!” Every other word is usually, “MaMA? MaMA?” She points to the door and says, “Outside?” She also calls all her babies “Abby”, gives them kisses, and tells them, “Good gooorl!” When it’s time to go to bed, she knows if any of her babies are missing, and says, “Baby? Baby?” until all are present and accounted for. Her shoe fetish begins first thing in the morning and sometimes lasts throughout the night as she sleeps with her shoes on her feet. She walks around with a pretend phone, laughing and conversing before saying, “Die- die!” and hanging up.
These are my children, the ones who fill my days with joy and fun; sometimes sorrow and exhaustion. As someone said last night, and I echo her words, I would like to believe that I am enjoying every moment. Yes, they turn ten in what seems a blink! But I love seeing them change and grow. Sometimes the change seems slow, other times it happens overnight. One day their head is covered in peach fuzz, the next day it’s in a pony-tail. One day they’re on my hip, and the next day they’re riding their bike around the block. They don’t stay babies forever, and I’m glad of that! I love every stage, every age, and every page of this book of life we’re writing together.
Take That, Monday
For whatever reason, Monday mornings always seem out to get me.
Petty arguments: “Did you hurt her?” was my question. “Not that much,” was the answer.
Getting on the computer without asking: Someone googled their name and so it was pretty easy to figure out who did it. Another child said to them, “They [meaning google] don’t know who you are. You’re not famous. Yet.” I couldn’t help but chuckle under my breath.
During school, Elijah was writing a short story and was trying to think of a title for it. He was contemplating using A Knight’s Tale until Nadine sternly warned him, “You can’t use Knight’s Tale. Remember? You will have to pay twenty-five million dollars! And then you’ll go to jail!” I’m glad plagiarism and copyright rules are strictly enforced around here.
Earlier this afternoon I was feeling the desperate need for some sunshine, so Jack and I sat outside to practice his reading. After about ten minutes it felt like a bug flew into my hair. There was an awful buzzing sound, which was muffled and then stopped when I shooed at whatever was there. I thought it flew back out, until a minute later when I heard more horrible buzzing coming from my hair. I shooed it again and asked Jack what it was. He looked in my hair and yelled, “It’s a wasp!” I then proceeded to scream and panic and scream some more. I yelled for Elijah to come and get it OUT OF MY HAIR! The neighbors must have thought I was being attacked. I am petrified of getting stung. The thought of a wasp or yellow jacket (which it turns out it was) stinging me on my head makes me shiver. After some more stomping, head swirling, and yelling, miraculously it flew out. I promptly put a hat on my head.
Even though there are fights and disagreements, there are also sweet moments. At lunch Nadine looked over at Elsie and said, “What is your favorite food, Elsie? I need to get to know you better, since we always get into fights!”
Right now they are outside playing “China”, and speaking in some unintelligible language. There are two countries at war I think. Betty may be the ransom, I’m not sure. There are scarves and hats and lots of foreign dialogue. We’re out to get Monday and make it fun!
Growing Betty
Sometimes I just sit on the ground and watch Elsie and Betty play their games. This particular day involved a cowboy hat and a load of towels hanging on the clothesline. In and out they went, laughing and chattering. Betty’s personality is quickly emerging as she approaches the big two.

She loves to play. She just discovered that she loves apples, so now she fits in with the rest of her siblings when they each are chomping on an apple. In fact, the other day Jack was eating a huge apple and his loose tooth came out and he swallowed it with the apple! Oops! He was very nonplussed about it and kept eating his apple.

Her pants are starting to look like flood-water pants, and her shoes barely squeeze on her little feet. She’s been in size 3 for a long time!

When I asked Nadine what her favorite thing about Betty is right now, she said, I love it when she puts her hands behind her back and just stands there. It’s true. Super cute! Her favorite song is “Ten Men”, where we act out the story of the ten men that Jesus healed and only one man came back. Then she brings one hand out and puts up her pointer finger and waves it around while we sing, “Thank you, thank you, Jesus…” So cute.

When we ask her a question and it’s a yes, she excitedly says, “Da!” When it’s a no, she shakes her head very fast, tilts her head down, and looks up with no expression on her face, except whatever her big brown eyes say.

A typical afternoon with Betty includes a few changes of shoes, running around with something on her head, and lots of giggling. She also seems to leave a whirlwind of messes wherever she goes. I think the main reason she makes messes is so she can clean them up. She loves to help pick things up, sweep the floor, unload the dishwasher, and put things away. It’s hard to get upset when I turn around and she’s smiling at me.

Under the Fish Lights Again
It’s hard to believe that a week ago we were driving home with five rambunctious kids, sad to leave the shore house, which no matter how long you stay there, is never long enough. A week of school, finally unpacking, seventeen loads of laundry (or so), and twenty-one meals. Yesterday I pulled a twelve-hour shift of non-stop kids, chattering, tidying, schooling, and somewhere in there a cup or two of hot tea! My hat goes off to those mamas who solo it every day. It just happened to be an extra long day of work and other commitments for Matthew, and the sound of his rusty old truck parking outside makes my heart skip a beat, and then settle into a gentle rhythm of, “He’s home… he’s home…”
Our time at the shore house was thankfully not plagued by any strange throw-up bugs, or deluges, and we made it through four days without going to the laundromat! Now that’s exciting! Playing Balderdash one night under the fish lights and laughing our guts out reaches pretty high on my list of favorite memories. I had my handy-dandy voice recorder secretly going, and caught a bunch of hilarity that way, including the moment when the bench that Matt’s parents were sitting on collapsed. I think we were super relaxed by laughing so hard, that thankfully they weren’t hurt… and so we laughed some more!
We also had fun with sparklers, taking bike rides, and drinking slushies.
One morning, some went fishing while some of us stayed behind and played super-woman and phase ten.
We also took a trip to the boardwalk one night. I had a blast doing the screaming swing with Nadine again. Elijah rode the go-karts and spun himself silly on the tornado. Elsie loved the rides even more this year. Jack was about a quarter-inch too short for the rollercoaster. Betty wanted to do everything but couldn’t. Next year should be epic!










